I heard a song the other day by Micheal Olson called, "Give My Life Away." It talks about Jesus giving His life away for us...then the song takes a turn and challenges the listener about giving their own life away for Jesus...

Surrender it all...Pick up our crosses and follow Him.

I'm reading the gospel of John right now and the way that He and others in this book talk to and about Jesus is captivating to me. Their words are spoken with a sense of awe and wonder of their Messiah. Being around the Savior just made them yearn for so much more. They wanted to give their lives away and follow Jesus.

They have nothing, yet gain everything....

There are costs they pay, yet they receive the sweetest of rewards...

What an example of living for Christ. Give everything away, expecting nothing in return...knowing there are prices to pay, but trusting Christ's word. This is such a challenge to me. It has been something that has been on my heart a lot lately. How do I view my Savior? Am I willing to give my life away? I desire to live my life that way, but am I truly willing to sacrifice everything? Even the things that mean most to me? Do I trust that He is worth it all?

I am a selfish sinner...desiring to live as Christ lived and love as Christ loves... surrendering daily my human desires and taking up my cross in order to follow my Messiah...my Savior.

I'm gunna to give my life away

expect nothing in return

if that's the price that I must pay

that's a lesson I will learn

with every breath I take

I'll take Jesus at His word

I'm gunna give my life away..

This is my prayer.

God's timing...

I have much to learn about God's timing. I have been humbled lately...learning that even when my own desires appear to be godly, they can still not be God's best. My heart and mind have been restless with desires to do great things for the Lord. My mind has been filled with plans to go and do big things to further His kingdom. And even though these things are godly, the Lord is still asking me to wait....to be still...to allow Him to prepare me.

I feel that this time in my life is such a huge growth period of becoming who I am in Christ and finding my identity there. The Lord has much to do in me and I'm excited to see how He molds and shapes my hopes, dreams, and desires of my heart.

Lord...I am yours and let your will be done...I surrender my life with open hands.