I find myself at a loss for words today. It's interesting to say the least...I always have something to think about, something to say, something to do...but today I'm just still.
I feel I am in this inbetween stage of wanting to control things in my life and yet wanting to let the Lord take it. It's the stage of blah. I desire God's best for my life and yet I always want to fix things myself. I try so hard to let Him do what He thinks is best, but then my impatient human mind takes over and I try to sick my foot in the door of God's work...only to find myself in a worse position that I was to begin with.
I am found
lonely,
hurting,
and speechless.
I am speechless to the fact that I thought I could try to do this on my own or do it better than Christ. Who am I to think such things? That the creator of the universe cannot handle something as tiny as my life....
I am speechless tonight because God is so much bigger than I can even imagine and He has EVERYTHING under control. My life is such a small portion to God's plan for this world. I am speechless as to why He would even want to care about me and my troubles...
He has left me at a loss for words and that is when I will see him work the best..
when I am quiet and out of control
