I find myself at a loss for words today. It's interesting to say the least...I always have something to think about, something to say, something to do...but today I'm just still.
I feel I am in this inbetween stage of wanting to control things in my life and yet wanting to let the Lord take it. It's the stage of blah. I desire God's best for my life and yet I always want to fix things myself. I try so hard to let Him do what He thinks is best, but then my impatient human mind takes over and I try to sick my foot in the door of God's work...only to find myself in a worse position that I was to begin with.
I am found
lonely,
hurting,
and speechless.
I am speechless to the fact that I thought I could try to do this on my own or do it better than Christ. Who am I to think such things? That the creator of the universe cannot handle something as tiny as my life....
I am speechless tonight because God is so much bigger than I can even imagine and He has EVERYTHING under control. My life is such a small portion to God's plan for this world. I am speechless as to why He would even want to care about me and my troubles...
He has left me at a loss for words and that is when I will see him work the best..
when I am quiet and out of control
"I am speechless tonight because God is so much bigger than I can even imagine and He has EVERYTHING under control. My life is such a small portion to God's plan for this world. I am speechless as to why He would even want to care about me and my troubles..."
ReplyDeletethis is so incredibly true...and the most powerful part of all of it is that yes, He is the creater of the universe...and our individual lives are but a tiny fraction of this universe.
and when i say tiny, i mean MICROSCOPIC.
but, for some reason that can be construed as nothing but pure, passionate love, He cares about our tiny lives.
He cares about them enough to orchestrate every single microscopic aspect.
and us? well, all we have to do is trust Him.
we have it easy!
i love you.
keep pushing forward!