Rainy days capture the perfect picture of how it feels to be in a time of waiting. The day is usually gray, you cannot go outside and play, your mood usually changes, and it seems unending.
...you sit, waiting for the rain to stop, hoping to see the sun shine through...
As I sat in my room admiring the rain, I found myself waiting. Waiting for so many things in my life, for God to reveal guidence in friendships, for where the Lord wants to lead me in ministry, waiting for school to be done, waiting for the next change in life. As I sat thinking about this period of waiting in my life, I found that waiting is the best and worst place to be in.
Waiting is the worst because sometimes you do not even know what you are waiting for. When you are waiting on the Lord, everything is out of your control and therefore very scary. You never know how long or how short. Time is entirely out of your hands. You feel as though you are stuck inside yourself and that the gray area all around you is not going to leave...sometimes it looks as though the sun will never shine through...
this is the place I find myself...I feel as though the gray will never leave, that the sun will never shine through, that I am tired and I want to give up. Even my mood is gray and my heart in a low place. It is hard to just sit and watch the rain pour in your life...
but then I am reminded of Lord telling me to be still. This time of waiting is also the best because it is an opportunity to trust God and see his faithfulness shine through! He is a God who has it under control and wants my very best. He is asking me to allow Him to give me His very best. So in this time of waiting, God is also doing the most work in my heart. He desires to show me his faithfulness through it all...
and He will if I
sit...
be still...
wait...
and watch as He turns my darkness into light.
"Be still and know that I am God..." Psalm 46:10
Ally.
ReplyDeleteThis is so true and spoke much truth into my life as i read it. I love you. More then you know. I have loved watching your journey unravel and how faithful the Lord has been in your life. I find myself sitting in the rain as well. Waiting to see if there is a light at the end of this. There is... there always is.
True.LOVE.Forever
the only comfort we can rely on during points like this is that the Lord has never been anything but faithful to us. sure, this time of rain and waiting may seem to be more difficult than any other you've experienced, but the Lord will see you through it...as he ALWAYS does. and what's better than that? the fact that at the end of this, you will be stronger for the next journey he has for you to embark on.
ReplyDeleteeven though sometimes it feels as if there is nothing productive happening in this waiting place, He is preparing you for what is to come....which is EXCITING!
He is faithful.
so stay faithful to Him :)